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My paternal Nana’s birthday is today, she would have been 102
And yesterday was my Aunt’s birthday (my Father’s sister) who would have been 71
The anniversary of my Father’s passing was 10 days ago, he would have been 75
I never knew either of my Father’s sisters because they both transitioned very young
My family never speaks of either of them, and for much of my life, I didn’t even know that I had two aunts who I had never met
One passed shortly after birth (from what I was told upon inquiry and quickly changed to another subject) and the other was part of a tragic accident that would forever change the dynamism of their family, something that particularly affected my Father due to the nature of the accident
My Father’s family was always a bit cold, quiet and stern and they never once spoke about Cynthia Star or Deborah Rae
However, once I became aware of these deep miasmas my family was carrying, it made complete sense as to why they were the way they were
There was no space energetically or emotionally to connect with any of them
I remember as a child feeling an intense heaviness coupled with immense grief, anger and resentment every time I interacted with my Nana and Pop Pop as well as my Uncle
I also remember feeling that none of them particularly cared for me because I was “so sensitive”, and they much preferred my other three siblings over me
My Father’s grief weighed heavily on him so much so that he was an alcoholic and a smoker most of his life, a desperate means to cope with his depression
He suffered three heart attacks and multiple open-heart surgeries (all of which he came out of) because of the toll this accident took on him when he was just 7 years old
A couple months ago when my spinal issues flared up, particularly the area in my cervical spine and neck, I kept thinking of my dear Aunt (Cynthia Star), who passed at the age of three in the accident
Through the large amount of ancestral information that I have been able to track down, I found her death certificate which stated she had a fractured skull and broken neck
And then it became clear to me, this pain in my cervical spine was directly connected to my Aunt
I was here to support my paternal lineage in healing this miasma that had caused so much collapse and callousness within the heart
I have carried this pain in my neck since I was birthed into this world essentially
I remember having a deep fear most of my life around anything touching my neck, leaning my head backwards, doing back handsprings in gymnastics etc.
This miasma was so deeply embedded within my ancestral line, that I was given the opportunity to resolve it fully through my own physical vessel in this lifetime
How profound that ancestral pains can literally manifest into other family member’s bodies in this way
We as the children of our ancestors, have the opportunity to make extensive leaps and bounds when it comes to resolving the pains and traumas of our lineage
And when we do so, it heals past, present and future generations from carrying this miasma or “dead energy”
A reminder to myself as to why I do all the inner landscaping I do
Because I AM THE GENETIC PATHCUTTER OF MY LINEAGE
Every family has at least one, and if you’re reading this, you may very well be the one in your family
It is not a role I take lightly, for I have dedicated myself to it fully over the last three years
My ancestors chose me to be the one to carry us all back home safely
And so today, on Samhain, I am honoring my Father’s lineage
For those who may not know, this Celtic tradition includes honoring our ancestors on this day when the veil is thin between the human world and spirit worlds
Offering reparation, forgiveness, compassion and unconditional love
It is important that I speak their names here and now and offer Ho’oponopono:
Ray Hansen Clanton
Janis Nixon Lester Clanton
Gary Lester Clanton
Deborah Rae Clanton
Cynthia Star Clanton
May you all return home safely to the Source of all Creation, to the Holy Mother and Holy Father, to the Eternal Living Light of God
May you be at peace
May God restore the light within you
You are now free
I’m sorry
Please forgive me
Thank You
I love you
Blessings to you on this Samhain
-Eagle
*If you'd like to connect with your ancestors or feel there is something you'd like to address within your own lineage, I would love nothing more than to support you in this. I offer this through Quantum Healing Sessions which you can book here.
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